Monday, Nov. 06, 2006
The Chocolate Current
Have you ever felt like you were Charlie in Charlie in the Chocolate Factory and you're riding on the boat on the chocolate river? First you start out fine, happy-go-lucky, with nothing to fear. Then suddenly, there is a drop, then twists and turns. Everything starts flashing before you. You feel in the pit of your stomache, the utter fear of not knowing whats going to happen next. Every time you hit a new twist or turn, you feel like you heart drops, you stomache jumps, everything inside you rattles while the outside of you clenches up. Sweat pores down your face. Every fiber in your being is begging that it would stop.
Soon, you don't know which direction you're heading. You don't even know where you came from. You want to look behind, but you're still clenched up in fear to the point where you are unable to move. You try to speak, but the fright silences you. You dont know which way is up or down. You don't know if you can trust your hands to tell you which way is left or right. You are lost in an abyss of confusion and fear.
Sometimes, as a Christian, I feel like I am riding the chocolate boat of confusion. I become lost in what's going on, school work, work, friends, and other people around me, that I forget my Lord. Then, when I realize that I'm being swept upon this flow of chaos, I become filled with utter fear. Because of his fear, I begin to hate myself and put myself saying things like, "I'm not a good Christian. God is going to be so mad." so on and so forth. I forget that God loves me unconditionally and will forgive me. But I become filled with such crazy thoughts that I am overwlemed with fear and that leads to confusion. Where to turn? What to do? What to say? I just dont know. So what do I do? I continue to get swept upon this cocoa flow, and lose my way even more.
Looking at this situation from this point of view, it seems some what outragious, but we know that this happens. But why? The answer to that question, from my point of view, is always different with each person. My reason is not going to be the same as Tank's and Tank's reason is going to be different from Titus'. How can this be fixed?
Imagine that you're on a road in a town, and you dont know where you are. What do you do (for men, what do women do)? You ask directions.
So, when you lose your way in this Flow of the World, ask the One who will always know where to point you. Ask the ultimate map. Ask the Lord. He will point you in the right direction, that is, after He stops the crazy boat and helps you out of it.
Fear is never in control until you hand it the wheel.
I guess this is just something I needed to tell myself. I find that writing my thoughts down can really help me discover where my heart really is.
--Hope
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lovingod at 8:47 P.M.